After writing all of that out yesterday, a lot of crying, and some prayer, I am feeling a little better today. I have group Bible study today, I know that will help me too. I'm sure that a lot of my problem right now is exhaustion and horomones. The problem with that, is that it is going to get worse before it gets better. I know how demanding a newborn is and with a 1 year old to care for as well, it is going to be tough. I was depressed after my second child was born and I REALLY don't want to go through that again. It lasted way too long! I had her in February and was still suffering from post partum depression when my best friend announced she and her family (who where my neighbors at the time) were moving 5 hours away. That drug on until after they moved in November. Hopefully that is not going to happen again but of course, I fear the worst. For know, I am going to look on the bright side and take my days one at a time. Hopefully there will be more good days than bad!
Lord, please help to always try to find the good in my life. I know that you will not give me more than I can handle. I am your child and I know you want nothing but the best for me and my family. Please help me to remember that as I go through the next few months of pregnancy and endless Dr. appointments. Oh, and Lord, if you could try to control my hormones a little more, I would greatly appreciate it! In Jesus name I pray, Amen